Tell Me I Did Great

Assalammualaikum w.b.t.

It's been long since my last post. I hope I still have the ability to write again, I hope. I missed writing. I missed sharing. I missed everything I have missed in life.

That's how messed up my mind right now. Yeah I've been missing everything. I'm happy with my studies, my life right now but something just feels off.

I was just sitting around watching k-drama of Romantic Doctor, Teacher Kim when I suddenly realized I need something.
I'd been staring at my laptop screen for minutes when I know I need someone. Someone that can give me pat on my head after I have a tiring day/ stressful day/ or just simply a bad day. Or maybe a phone call? to listen to my stressful day.

And now writing this up, I am now feeling like I am just overreacting hahaha. What a fool.
But no, really I need something though.

And Yeah , finally after an episode, something just flashed through my mind.

I actually jus need someone, anybody, as long as it is a living human being to tell me I've done great job everyday. Tell me I studied well. Tell me I did well.

That's all. That's all. Just a little assurance that I'm on the right track.

Patient is your best teacher

"Patient is your best teacher. When you have time, go to the hospital and clerk patient"

A wise man said this to us, students, once. What he said was indeed true. I noticed that though I read about some diseases from those thick huge books, I find it easier to remember all the details through my observation from the patients.

I must say that I am pretty thankful that I am studying here in India as the patients mostly are cooperative although sometimes they get annoyed when you asked question while they are in pain. Some days, you might even be lucky to have patients that speak English. Here, at where I am now, the locals majority use Kannada language, Marathi language or Hindi. I am happy enough if my patients are able to speak Hindi.

Patients here are welcoming the students and they look up on medical students like how they look upon their doctors. They greet you "Namaskar Madam" while smiling brightly.

There was this one time I got a patient with venous ulcer secondary to varicose vein. He was so cooperative which i was thankful about and everyday when I came to check on him, he will always asked whether i have eaten or not. He told me about his problems that led to his newly diagnosed hypertension. I was touched on how he trust me to tell his problem which are personal to him.
Building rapport is not easy with language barrier and the struggle is real guys.

There are also times when I tried to clerk a pediatric patient.Her mother who is her informant couldn't understand a word we're saying so she gave up on us. Yes, I was disappointed but what can I do? I'll just have to go and find another patient.

You know they trust you are good when they asked for your help in the ward like when the IV fluid isn't running or when they need any medication. I am not trained and am not qualified to do that just (without supervision) yet so I call the sister/brother in charge to take a look at them and still I'm happy that they trusted me.

Another doctor told us that when you clerk a patient and you don't know what the disease that are having. A disease that you never learned or never heard of before. You can get all the info from the patient itself. Start by asking the symptoms they are having that brings them to the hospitals. Any investigation done? what are the treatments they are taking? any side effects?
Through all these questions, you'll get to learn the whole thing about the disease. Been there, tried that and acquired the info.

I am definitely not a book worm (I tried to be one) so I try going to hospital everyday if I am able to because patient is your best teacher right?

Lecturers are the best teachers too, don't forget that. So, don't skip class!

Perks of Studying Overseas

Assalammualaikum.
Hye guys !

Busy la lately ni. Busy merenung masa depan. Hahahaha takdelah tipu je. Buat buat busy adalah!
I just came back from Malaysia after a week of Deepavali holiday. And I now, I don't even have to say out loud, everyone was already expecting me to be homesick already and yes I am.

Susah kan duduk jauh. Tapi rezeki kat sini jadi kita kena tabah kan diri jelah kan. Sob sob!Takpe cuti CNY nanti balik lagi yeay! InsyaAllah, permudahkanlah urusan semua kan. Amin.

Kalau siapa yang dok baca post aku sebelum sebelum ni mesti tau aku ni asyik meroyan homesick je kan. Tu salah satu benda tak best kalau duduk oversea (excuse diri ini yang terlalu overly attached with family). But then, besides from homesick, there are actually lots of good things we when we study overseas.

Tak tipu pun. Serious. Ramai je tanya aku pasal best tak duduk oversea? duduk india? and such. Seronok je. You get to learn lots of new things.

Aku bagi contoh yang senang lah ya. Dekat Malaysia pernah kau nampak lembu atas jalan raya, bersiar siar ikut suka mereka? Tak pernah kan? Sini, hari -hari kau boleh tentang mata dengan lembu. Kat Malaysia, selaintiba Hari Raya Qurban, aku tak nampak pun lembu berkeliaran memana.

Contoh kedua: Kalau selalu tengok movie hindustan je mesti banyak lagukan. Hero and heroin bertentang mata, terus scene menyanyi menari keluar kan. Tipu je. Real life takde pun. Kan sini aku tengok orang bertentang mata, elok je, takde pun jejeoget, nyanyi nyanyi ni semua. Haaa gitu tau! Sebab ada lah beberapa kawan aku yang suka layan citer hindustan ni tanya pasal ni. Takde wey. Jarang betul aku nampak orang menari tanpa sebab kukuh kat sini.

Lagi satu students kat sini, ramai yang ambik peluang travel kesini sana. Ada yang pi europe trip, north india trip, korea, jepun, south india and banyak lagi lah. Yelah sebab bila kat india ni, kau dah half way dah drpd journey tu so they don't want to waste the opportunity.

Kau pun boleh belajar nak masak makanan sedap sedap. Yelah dah duduk jauh dari family kan. Makkau takde kat hosteltu nak tolong masakkan hari hari. Inilah masa untuk kau berdikari. Berdiri atas kaki sendiri . Tak gitu? So nanti kalau kau dah stat kerja, lepas tu duduk rumah sewa sorang sorang takdelah hari-hari kau pegi restoran makan.

 Banyak je lagi keliebihan dia. Lain tempat, lain kelebihan. Macam aku duduk india, nak balik takdelah kena transit dekat Dubai ke apa kan. From Goa or Bangalore ada direct flight ke Malaysia. Macam kawan aku ramai yang kena transit dulu. Sebab tu ramai malas nak balik sebab dah bazir hari bila transit banyak tempat. Aku kira untunglag jugak duduk India ni.

Point aku is, masing-masing punya tempat ada je kelebihan and kekurangan dia. Apa-apa pun,  niat kau tu yang penting. Pasang niat tu betul-betul, InsyaAllah nanti jalan kau dipermudahkan.

Tu jeeeeee.
Bye chuolss

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA - dari perantauan

Assalammualaikum.

Tahun kedua beraya haji di India. Masih lost dengan apa yang patut aku buat pada malam raya. Disebabkan macam dah lama tak beraya dekat rumah or kampung, aku jadi lupa macam mana kami biasa menyambutnya.

Seingat aku pagi tu reramai akan pergi sembahyang raya. Lepas tu balik makan. Makanan semua dah standby dah. Dari malam raya tu je semua orang sibuk memasak lah mengemas la. Masak pulak makanan semua nak sedap-sedap. I cannot tahan terliur everytime.

Last year adalah jugak senior floor hostel buat celebration reramai. Diorang masak. Sedap, sumpah tak tipu. Dekat oversea dapat makanan macam malaysia macam nak nangis tau tak. Setiap suap makanantu nikmatnya macamm mmm tak terkata lah. Alhamdullilah. Thanks akak akak semua!

Tahun ni, diorang tak buat dah. Semua makin busy. Sehari sebelum raya semua orang busy. Sibuk kelas lah and macam macam lagi. Aku pulak lupa beli groceries nak memasak. Almaklumlah, kelas ada and bila gap je aku kejar nak tidur.

Dah berangan angan dah aku nak ayam kurma ke apa ke. Sekali lupa beli ayam. Acane ni? Takpelah redha jelah dengan apa yang ada boleh dimasak.

Noob lagi rupanya aku ni. Tu lah kalau kat rumah, mama asyik remind kata nak beli itu ini.

Honestly, I don't even remember what I did on every night of Aidiladha.

I guess I should do a sticky note on my desk "Keep AYAM in fridge. Lepas habis terus beli"

That's all bebelan malam raya dari india.
Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha!
Love you all